My greatest fear is making immoral things which against the law of my God. Yes! The reason why i am afraid of making bad things it’s because i love my God more than life. This world given by our God is full of excitement ....full of temptation...full of discouragement...full of criticism and full of weakness but still i do believe that there if more good than evil. I strongly believe that altogether work for good for those who love God. Anyway we are sinners. But God loves us so let us love our selves while we hate our sin.

Many of those who committed suicide were people who could not forgive themselves, who could not accept the fact that they have committed. If only they could accept the reality and turn to God for forgiveness, their loving father would teach them to love themselves again. Love yourself and be great.

Let me tell you something what is my life before, totally away from God. Turning away from God is turning away from goodness. Yes...all kind of sin i had that before. I been in the darkness, i hated myself, i worry about my tomorrow I don’t even know who I am, I don’t know where i belong ….i am very very weak...

One night i was sleeping of my bed i would have nightmares about being buried myself alive or being to choose between my family's life and my own and suddenly i cried for that dream, I am in a pensive mode that time thinking what is good.

While walking in the way to go home theirs someone calling my name " chum chum and that's my very close friend and he is a Christian, go to church tomorrow ha see you there! I was shock hah...okay ill try because he is a Pentecost which I’m not before...that day i share with him my nightmare and he gave me an advice goes like this " my friend no matter what happen don’t give up, no matter what you’ve sin, no matter what you’ve been through, no matter what you’ve done, no matter where you been, no matter how many times you mess up .....You’re not alone because somebody loves you and JESUS loves you. Wow i was revive that word I can’t explain my feeling how happy I am to have a friend like him, he made me complete that day...